I don’t think I have had a day that has gone smoothly as far back as I remember. I have struggled with exhaustion and depression for years. I live near family, but they are very critical and leave me feeling like garbage. Last week I discovered that our 8th child is on the way. There are so many things that my husband and I need to improve for our family life to run more smoothly. And I am terrified for relatives to find out. And its so ridiculous. I am 33 years old and married, so our life choices are no one’s business. But my family had never respected me as an adult or respected our boundaries. Sorry for rambling, I am just overall having a hard time with everything.